thisismylife

for fee

2008-02-18T06:08:00.000-08:00

HEY FEE!!
this's post is for you!
hahahahaha

damn it's been ages since i've blogged

really damn sian now,
failed my maths and english CT
and my parents are not around
i'm all alone at home
lonely..
hahh,

oh well,
i guess i wont be getting the PS3 then,
oh well

that's all
bye

THIS IS MY LIFE! 11:36pm 15th Dec'

2007-12-15T07:35:00.000-08:00

hey guys,
just came back home from CHC..
the service was good..
just not very used to the P&W thats all..
hahahah
not used to having 4songs for P&W than having like 6songs for P&W like in Zion
hahaha, oh well..
=D

dont really know what to blog today man..
like..donno man..nothing to blog about!

hahahaha..
i guess that's it for today i guess

till we meet again

" oh no baby,
i dont know how it's gonna be in the future.
ugh, the torture "

THIS MY LIFE! 10:27pm 3 Dec Nov' 2007

2007-12-14T22:26:00.000-08:00

" I guessed i've learnt,
maybe you do need some space..
and maybe i do need some space too (eventually),
do you think i'm too clingy to you?
do you think i'm too irritating?
or am i just too over-sensitive all over again? "

ai-yai-yai,
hahaha
just came back from dinner with family
went to crystal jade taka to celebrate mum's bday..

went to auntie charmaine's house earlier in the afternoon
had lunch over there..
( DAMN IT I'M EATING TOO MUCH!!!!! GYM GYM GYM GYM! NEED TO GYM ! )
HAHAHA..
as expected, didnt go to the gym in the morning..
like no mood lah..gotta rush back also..
yeahhh

" Commitment - Talking when i dont feel like talking,

Not Talking, When I Really Want To "

shikes,
there's youth tomorrow..
10am man..
ughhhh
after youth i'll be going over to CHC..
havent been there in ages man..
yikes..

i guess that's it

till we meet again

THIS IS MY LIFE! 10:39pm 13th Dec'

2007-12-13T06:33:00.000-08:00

Sorry Guys!
hahaha,
sorry didnt blog the past few days,
i kept reminding myself to do so,
but in the end just keep forgetting..
haahah..

anyway,
life's been okay..
I KNOW I NEED TO STUDY,
but you know..
you just wanna do everything else accept STUDY!
ughh! it's freaking irritating!!!

" Lord, I wanna turn away,
but....
It's hard to..
I Need Your Help "

just now went for dinner with parents and their friends
at mellben seafood AMK..
super shiok man..
all the seafood and stuff..
kinda makes me feel sick now actually..
ate so much somemore
( Reminder : Go Gym TOMORROW )
hahaha..

tomorrow,
going to auntie charmaine's new house for lunch..
then going to celebrate mum's birthday at crystal jade takashimaya
with family..
jia lat jia lat..
each so much..
tsk tsk tsk
hahahahaha...

okay guys,
really tired liao..

till we meet again

" i just want to spend my whole christmas with you!"

THIS IS MY LIFE! 12:28pm 11th Dec'

2007-12-11T00:28:00.000-08:00

hey guys!
sorry for not blogging
was havin' youth camp from the 6th - 10th..
so had no chance to blog

well,
the youth camp was great..
awesome i tell you..
first two days was for the joints ( leaders )
we came up with the youth name and values..
and also the 'How To' for our strategy " One in every school "
on the second night,
the Holy Spirit fell upon us,
and i tell you..it was AWESOME..
AWESOME..
and on the last night,
the joints took the chance to minister to the members..
and the Holy Spirit moved mightly..
and i can say, the Presence Of God was with us all the time,
be it during meals,games or ministry..
God taught me alot during these few days..
alot on leadership, and alot of life lessons..
and God re-ignited my flame for the Word of God..
and i tell you, it's been an awesome and powerful experience..

yeah,
went shopping Mum and Dad just now.
bought a pair of shoes from Primavera, a shirt, a t-shirt and a hoody
from Buffalo..
hahaha..
well,
just wanna thank God for His Goodness and Greatness that He
is showing in my life..

okay guys,
that's about it..

till we meet again

"baby, let's take it to the next level"

THIS MY LIFE! 10:33pm 3 Dec Nov' 2007

2007-12-03T22:33:00.000-08:00

"BABY!
you're gone for sentosa! ahhhhhhh!
i cannot take it!!
I MISS YOU LAHHH!!!!
haizz
=/ "

hey guys,
sorry for not blogging man...
i've been really tired, so much shit to do..
and not really in the mood for blogging also

well, today was really shit
you knw..have you missed somebody so much
that you just feel like walking aimlessly?
you just feel that you're life has just no point for that point of time?
yeahh..
walked around plaza sing after theory for like half an hour.
just walked and walked..
like some mentally challenged dude..
walk walk walk..( yeah, you get the point )
and then after that, went to macs to sit down..
read my book called " Hand Me Another Brick "
it's a great book man..
about leadership and stuff..
and it really got me thinking alot..
rarely had some 'alone time'..
and so after that, went to Takashimaya to meet mum to repair her phone..
went there to look for Sony Ericsson..
walk walk walk again..
then in the end, mum called me and said " eh sorry , it's at wisma atria "
then sian sian walk all the way to wisma..
hahaha..

" i just wished you could talk to me like how you always do,
whether you're in the mood, or not "

oh well,
baby's gone for sentosa,
miss her like shit in the toilet bowl ( as she says it )
oh well..

that's all..

till we meet again

THIS IS MY LIFE! 12:20am 1st Dec' 07

2007-11-30T08:19:00.000-08:00

" the shadow of the day will embrace the
world in grey,
and the sun will set for you "

yay guys!
it's the 1st of Dec already!
a new month,
a new beginning..

Today (30th Nov' 07)
was super fun!
but really tiring..
did a drama with the youth for Sunday's Service..
it's called ' Greener Grass '
a remake of Glenn Lim's ' Green Grass '
SUPER TIRING..
had to do alot of re-takes and shit..
and due to some complication,
i had to do 2 roles instead..
acted as the lead actor's father, and a doctor..
really funny..

"Yay!, Baby said she found me handsome!"

okay, sorry for total randomness,
and if i sound desperate..hahaha
* in gay voice * well that's who i am k?! you cant change me!
HAHA..
anyway..
tommorrow have to go church even earlier..
to do the video editing..
siong man..really siong.
havent been getting alot of rest lately..
got alot of shit to do man

okay guys,
that's about it..
i'm off to sleep..

till we meet again =D

" baby, sometimes i just hate to talk
when you're not in the mood "

THIS IS MY LIFE! 12am 30th Nov'

2007-11-30T00:00:00.000-08:00

wah!
zhun zhun post at 12am..
ahahaha..

" God, i feel so far away right now...
no matter how i hard i try,
it seems like i'll always fall..
i know you're always here with me..
but i just dont feel it sometimes,
i know Lord, that you'll help me get back to my feet..
strengthen me and guide me..
help me to focus on what i need to do,
let me focus on You,
help me to cast aside every distraction that's in the way..
Thank You Lord, for everything,
Thank You Lord, for Your grace and mercy,
Praise You Lord, for everything you do is so great and marvelous ! "

yeah,
today (28th Nov') was cool..
kinda slacked at home..
was really tired after the past 3 days of exercising..
geliang came over in the morning...
left in the evening to meet HER [ for the last time this month and maybe in December =( ]

" oh baby, i'm really gonna miss you so much,
but well, i believe that everything's gonna be all right,
as long as we keep in communication..
and as long there's
the
[Decision],
the
[Commitment],
and the
[LOVE],
we'll be alright,
although we're gonna miss each other alot!
but press on!
hold on!
<3"

anyway..
tomorrow will be going for a run in the morning [ hopefully i can wake up ]
and then will be going to church for the youth drama rehearsal for this sun..
okay guys,
take care..

till we meet again

"oh God, sometimes i just feel like i'm lying to You"

THIS IS MY LIFE! 11:32pm 28th Nov'

2007-11-28T23:32:00.000-08:00

"baby, i dont know what's going on..
i feel so lost ..
do we need to have some space to breathe?
can we carry on ?
i feel so lost ..
i want so much more of you..
but will you give me what i want?
or am i just asking too much out of you?
i feel so lost ..
i still feel like you're getting sick of me,
i'm sorry, but i feel that way,
am i too clingy?
am i too emotional or sensitive?
do you want a more "macho" guy?
i feel so lost .. "

hey guys,
finally blogging before 12am,
hahaha..
today, went gym in the morn with geliang..
super tiring..hahaha
body all ache like siao..
then after that went to church to do a recording with geliang..
didnt realised that the church recording quality was that good..
hahahaha..
sorry guys, todays post very short cause i not really in the mood for blogging
but oh well

that's all

till we meet again

" baby, tell me you love me,
i'm not desperate,
but i just need you so much..
gosh, sometimes i feel like i'm such a girl..
but really..
you could say i have a feminine side,
but who gives a shit..
i need you so much..
i miss you so much..
i love you so much.."

" FOREVER MEANS FOREVER, I LOVE YOU "

THIS MY LIFE! 1:19am 28th Nov' 2007

2007-11-28T01:19:00.000-08:00

hey guys,
back again...
*yawns*..damn, its 1:20 am already
gosh, freaking tired man..
just finished up my music theory homework,
or rather a part of it..hahah..

today ( 27th Nov' 2007),
went swimmin' in the afternoon with geliang..
swam a few laps and then headed to HER house..
then geliang damn funny, wanna follow me to meet her,
and then tell me say he just wanna go and meet up with her brother to talk..
after much hints of hesitance, he still decided to come along ( oh well )
hahaha..
and then like we met her and her brother at the playground and so i went to talk to her brother while i took a walk with her..

" baby, i wont really be meetin' you to talk till the week after next,
and gosh,
i'm really gonna miss you terribly,
TERRIBLY"

and so after that, they were all bored and so we went to her friend's house,
and i got pretty bored, and so i went out with her to talk..while geliang was still inside her friend's house..hahahha, damn funny..he was like inside with her friend and her brother and he was super bored lah..
and then he smsed me " eh, can go already anot? i'm like super bored here "
and then i replied " see lah! who ask you come? now regret lahh, tsk tsk tsk "
hahaha..damn funny lah..couldnt take it..

so anyway after that, headed home with geilang, went for dinner and blah blah blah blah..

"Baby, i'm not sure how i'll be next year,
with all the changes,
with all the things i'll have to adapt back to,
not seeing you till the weekends,
not being able to spend the long long hours with you on the phone,
not being able to just drop by and give you a nice warm hug
baby, it's a torture just by thinkin' about it..
i'll miss you"

yeah...
tomorrow will be headin' back to the gym with geliang, and then will be going to church to do some recordings..
i'm off to sleep guys,
take care..
and to end off like i always do

" till we meet again "
;)

"i promise you this,
i promise forever,
come what may,
from this day,
i swear to you,
that i'll always be true,
break your heart,
i'll never,
for i'll always love you,
FOREVER"

THIS IS MY LIFE! 10:33pm 26th Nov'

2007-11-26T22:33:00.000-08:00

hey guys!
woah!
finally!
created my new blog!

well let me explain my blog url for starters,

Decision-Commitment-Love

that to me, are the factors of true love..
to me, Love is made by a decision to love,
of course there must be an attraction first.
which leads to commitment,
that very thing that keeps the Love going, and growing
commitment is loving him/her even though you might not feel like it
and that to me, is LOVE!

hahaha..

anyway,
life's being hectic for me lately,
i've been preparing stuff for the youth camp that's coming on the 6th of dec which is almost a weeks time,
doing all the admin and games for the camp
tiring man..
i've being doing my music theory also
pretty tiring..
going for grade 3 exam next march..
scary..
hahahaha
learning everything about commitment first hand..
hahaha,
oh well,
that's life's lessons i guess
=D

anyway life's been good generally
and i thank God for that..

i've been getting to know HER alot better..
and it's been great!
i've been meeting up with her alot..
just to talk and spend time with each other..
and i just love the way she looks at me ..
the way she talks to me..
gosh,
i just love EVERYTHING about her!

hahahaha..
okay then..
that's about it for today..

see you !